| Song by Hungry Lights|
from the album Heavy Is The Crown
|Heavy Is The Crown track listing|
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"Contempt" is track two on the Hungry Lights studio album "Heavy Is The Crown." Remember that this is a summary, not the entire story! It is like 10% of what is actually going on—just the skeleton. It is a rough translation of what is literally going on in the lyrics. There is also a figurative story that is taking place at the same time which goes much deeper and does not involve the fictional character Prill, but that is up to you to find :) It is much easier to discover the hidden meaning when you grasp a decent understanding of the literal meaning first. These are your puzzle pieces, and I highly suggest you study them before pursuing the next albums in the sequence, otherwise emotion and information will be lost, therefore connections will be missed!
"Contempt" is the first musical chapter of this story. Justin has said that the story takes place about eight years after "The Awry Ascent" ended. Prill's daughter, "Abalone" has been born, and from what Justin has revealed about the novel of "Heavy Is The Crown," Prill has become the typical, thirty-three year old, deadbeat dad.
After the cliff-hanger from the previous album, the first section of lyrics in "Contempt" suggest that Prill did not catch Fothcrah, and he is now carrying a tremendous amount of regret and self-loathing. We can assume that he blames the entire ordeal on Prite becoming pregnant, so he carries great resentment for her and their daughter. On top of failing to catch Fothcrah, Prill also lost his pride and his dignity, and he goes on ranting about how if he was more prepared, and had things gone differently, he would have succeeded, but because he did not... he feels tortured by the memory of the events that took place.
Prill then goes on to preach some truth as he acknowledges the ego trip from "The Awry Ascent." He claims that it does not matter if he was just lying to himself the whole time because "This mind, o' it was already forsaken!" He is still aware of the true nature that is hiding and living within him, and he is aware that he is preventing it from coming out, so the friction and resistance is causing a different, conflicting pain against the self-deprecation and hatred. Prill feels like he is being torn apart and that he was simply created to be an example for the people of how not to be.
I was damned to repeat it
Temerity leaking and left behind
Miles out in the burning sea
-Where my virtue stayed afloat
My summer came, I let it slip
And now regret tugged at my coat
In spite of the seed I chose to grow
When you smiled,
I'd reconcile with all disdain my body showed
And with pretentious, tired eyes...
I would look into the sea,
And long a crown that never fit
I would not admit defeat
Had it gone differently, I could have been a king!
Now contrition curled my skin
Does it amuse you to watch a fool like me
Walk down a fishing line
Stretched 'cross a crater of sulfur and failure?
Alive, but never I'd felt so dead!
That beast, she groaned inside my head to be set free
Ripping flesh from bone,
Her watchful eyes had been exposed
Salvation was unknown to me
While I was trapped in that wolf skin
This mind, o' it was already forsaken!
And I breathed out flames and lies and lies
Let me demonstrate the lack of faith I'd obtained
True self, like a diamond,
Was hiding and covered in soot
Underneath mirrored mountains,
You squirmed and you shook
Such life should never be contained!
So you claw and you bite and you scream
I was made to show the world how much a failure
Could grow and learn from his mistakes
Instead of rotting in their wake
All the glory—all the fame could never bring me consolation
Forever feed this fire that calmly vampires and erodes itself
-To only bring contempt